~ DeOngster®™ a.k.a ConeKiller ~

This Romeo is bleeding
But you can’t see his blood
It’s nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up
It’s been raining since you left me
Now I’m drowning in the flood
You see I’ve always been a fighter
But without you I give up

Now I can’t sing a love song
like the way it’s meant to be
Well I guess I’m not that good anymore
But baby that’s just me

Yeah I will love you baby
Always
And I’ll be there forever and a day
Always
I’ll be there till the stars don’t shine
Till the heavens burst and words don’t rhyme
And I know when I die
You’ll be on my mind
And I’ll love you always

Now your pictures that
You left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh
Some that made us cry
Once that made you
Have to say good bye
What i’d give to run my fingers
Through your hair
To touch your lips
To hold you near
When you say your prayers
Try to understand
I’ve made mistakes
I’m just a man

When he holds you close
When he pulls you near
When he says the words
You’ve been needing to hear
I’ll wish I was him cause the words are mine
To says to you till the end of time

And I will love you baby
Always
And I’ll be there forever and a day
Always

If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There’s no price I won’t pay
To say these words to you

Well there ain’t no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams and out old lives
We’ll find a place
Where the sun still shines

Yeah I will love you baby
Always
And I’ll be there forever and a day
Always
I’ll be there till the stars don’t shine
Till the heavens burst and words don’t rhyme
And I know when I die
You’ll be on my mind
And I’ll love you always

What ravages of spirit
Conjured this temptuous rage
Created you a monster
Broken by the rules of love
And fate has led you through it
You do what you have to do
And fate has led you through it
You do what you have to do …

And I have the sense to recognize that
I don’t know how to let you go
Every moment marked
With apparitions of your soul
I’m ever swiftly moving
Trying to escape this desire
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do

But I have the sense to recognize
That I don’t know how
To let you go
I don’t know how
To let you go

A glowing ember
Burning hot
Burning slow
Deep within I’m shaken by the violence
Of existing for only you
I know I can’t be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can’t be with you
I do what I have to do

And I have sense to recognize but
I don’t know how to let you go
I don’t know how to let you go
I don’t know how to let you go

Bone (9x)
Now tell me whatcha gonna do when there ain’t no where to run
When judgment comes for you, when judgment comes for you
Tell me whatcha gonna do when there ain’t no where to hide
When judgment comes for you ‘coz it’s gonna come for you

Let’s all bring it in for Wally, Eazy sees uncle Charlie
Little Boo, God’s got him and I’m gonna miss everybody
I only roll with Bone my gang look to where they lay
When playing with destiny, play too deep for me to say
Lil’ Layzie came to me, told me if he should decease well then please
Bury me by my grand-grand and when you can, come follow me

God bless you, working on a plan to heaven
Follow the Lord all 24/7 days, God is who we praise
Even though the devil’s all up in my face
But he keeping me safe and in my place, say grace
For the case to race with a chance to face the judge
And I guess my soul won’t budge
Grudge because there’s no mercy for thugs
Oh, what can I do it’s all about our family and how we roll
Can I get a witness? Let it unfold
We living our lives to eternal our soul

Hey, and we pray and we pray and we pray and we pray
Everyday, everyday, everyday, everyday
And we pray and we pray and we pray and we pray
Still we laced, now follow me roll stroll
Whether is tell of his heaven
Come let’s go take a visit of people that’s long gone
Darris, Wally, Eazy, Terry, Boo
It’s steadily creeping up on the family
Exactly how many days we got lasting
While you laughing we’re passing, passing away
So y’all go rest y’all souls
‘Coz I know I’ma meet you up at the crossroad
Y’all know y’all forever got love from them Bone Thugs, baby

Now Eazy’s long gone
Really wish he would come home
But when it’s time to die
Gotta go bye-bye
All a thug could do is cry, cry
Why they kill my dog and man
I miss my uncle Charles y’all
And he shoudn’t be gone, in front of his home
What they did to Boo was wrong
Oh so wrong, oh so wrong
Gotta hold on, gotta stay strong
When the day comes
Better believe bone got a shoulder you can lean on

Hey and we pray, and we pray, and we pray, and we pray
Everyday, everyday, everyday, everyday
And we pray, and we pray, and we pray, and we pray
Everday, everyday, everyday, everyday

Chorus
See you at the crossroads, crossroads, crossroads
So you won’t be lonely (4x)

And I’m gonna miss everybody
And I’m gonna miss everybody when I’m gone (3x)

Living in a hateful world sending me straight to Heaven
That’s how we roll (3x)
And I’m asking the good Lord “why?” and sigh
It’s I he told me we live to die

What’s up with murder y’all, see my little cousin was hung
Somebody was really wrong, everybody want to test us dawg
Then Miss Sleazy set up Eazy to fall, you know why we sinning
And Krayzie intended on ending it when it ends
Wanna come again, again and again
Now tell me whatcha gonna do

Can somebody anybody tell me why?
Hey, can somebody anybody tell me why we die, we die?
I don’t wanna die

Oh so wrong, oh wrong

Chorus

Good bye old friend!! thanks for taking care of him and holding together to save him… you will be remembered as the greatest Tiara around in my heart… you went through life proud, fast and safe… you held together to keep him alive… proud of you for what you did…

Crahing at 180km/h, flipping in the air, turned turtle and you still managed to hold together amazing… this blog is in remembrance of you… thank you for taking care of him…

Before [Glorious Days]

After [180km/h Crash]

RIP old friend!! you have done your job well… well proud of you, always have been proud of you from the day you came out and will always be proud….

I hear the clock, it’s six a.m.
I feel so far away from where I’ve been
I got my eggs, I got my pancakes too
Got my maple syrup, everything but you
I break the yolks and make a smiley face
I kinda like it in my brand new place
I wipe the spots off of the mirror, don’t leave the keys in the door
I never put wet towels on the floor anymore ’cause
Dreams last so long, even after you’re gone
I know, that you love me and soon you will see
You were meant for me and I was meant for you
I Called my momma, she was out for a walk
Consoled a cup of coffee but it didn’t wanna talk
So picked up a paper, it was more bad news
More hearts being broken or people being used
Put on my coat in the pouring rain
I saw a movie it just wasn’t the same
‘Cause it was happy and I was sad and
It made me miss you oh so bad cause
Dreams last so long, even after you’re gone
I know, that you love me and soon you will see
You were meant for me and I was meant for you
I go about my business, I’m doing fine
Besides, what would I say if I had you on the line
Same old story, not much to say
Hearts are broken every day
I brush my teeth and put the cap back on
I know you hate it when I leave the light on
I pick up a book and turn the sheets down and then
Take a deep breath and a good look around
Put on my pj’s and hop into bed
I’m half alive but I feel mostly dead
I, I try and tell myself it’ll be all right
I just shouldn’t think anymore tonight ’cause
Dreams last so long, even after you’re gone
I know, that you love me and soon you will see
You were meant for me and I was meant for you
Yeah, you were meant for me and I was meant for you

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin’ when I hold you
Don’t you know I feel the same
‘Cause nothin’ lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it’s hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
We’ve been through this such a long long time
Just tryin’ to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one’s really sure who’s lettin’ go today
Walking away
If we could take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin’ that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin’ don’t refrain
Or I’ll just end up walkin’
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time…on your own
Do you need some time…all alone
Everybody needs some time…on their own
Don’t you know you need some time…all alone
I know it’s hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn’t time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time…on my
own Sometimes I need some time…all alone
Everybody needs some time…on their own
Don’t you know you need some time…all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain, ohhh yeahhh
I know that you can love me
When there’s no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
‘Cause nothin’ lasts forever
Even cold November rain

Don’t ya think that you need somebody
Don’t ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You’re not the only one
You’re not the only one

I should have seen it coming when roses died
Should have seen the end of summer in your eyes
I should have listened when you said good night
You really meant good bye
Baby, aint it funny, how you never ever learn to fall
Youre really on your knees, when you think youre standing tall
But only fools are know-it-alls and I played that fool for you

I cried and I cried
There were nights that died for you baby
I tried and I tried to deny that your love drove me crazy, baby

If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river I cried aint that long
Then Im wrong, yeah Im wrong, this aint a love song

Baby, I thought you and me would stand the test of time
Like we got away with the perfect crime but
We were just a legend in my mind
I guess that I was blind
Remember those nights dancing at the masquerade
The clowns wore smiles that wouldnt fade
You and I were the renegades, some things never change

It made me so mad cause I wanted it bad for us baby
Now its so sad that whatever we had, aint worth saving
If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river Ive cried aint that long
Then Im wrong, yes Im wrong, this aint a love song

If the pain that Im feeling so strong
Is the reason that Im holding on
Then Im wrong, yeah Im wrong - this aint a love song

I cried and I cried
There were nights that I died for you baby
I tried and I tried to deny that your love drove me crazy

If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river I cried aint that long
Then Im wrong, yeah Im wrong - this aint no love song

If the pain that Im feeling so strong
Is the reason that Im holding on
Then Im wrong, yeah Im wrong - this aint a love song

If the pain that Im feeling so strong
Is the reason that Im holding on
Then Im wrong, yeah Im wrong - this aint a love song
Yes, Im wrong, yeah, Im wrong - this aint a love song
Yes, Im wrong, yeah, Im wrong - this aint a love song
Yes, Im wrong, yeah, Im wrong - this aint a love song

sometimes i wish life was easier.. simple satisfying and content… yet in life the world tends to turn things around and you lose everything you ever beleived in… honour, trust, passion, hope, friendship, love… how can we define our feelings and understanding of another party… honour no longer exists in this world, people disregard the strength honour holds, for oneself and for everything surrounding that one person… trust is one thing that holds and binds everything together, one can destroy that so easily and yet its so difficult to rebuild and regain.. passion for life, everything you do you do with passion, give you the motivation and push to keep going to grow to improve… hope for everything, to be able to beleive in everything, to change to live to continue… love its just too painful to explain, when you lose someone you truly love, you will understand.. i have lost everything overnight… lifes so unfair… to end life it would be ecstacy yet too much will be sacrficed… i go to sleep hoping not to wake up… to live in that serene world where its forever peaceful… sometimes i wonder.. am i really important, will it be any loss with me gone.. i feel so pathetic writing this yet the idea seems so good… one day i will find out the answer…

I have lost my only reason…

Hello darkness, my old friend
I’ve come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone
‘Neath the halo of a street lamp
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence

“Fools”, said I, “You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows
Hear my words that I might teach you
Take my arms that I might reach you”
But my words, like silent raindrops fell
And echoed
In the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made
And the sign flashed out its warning
In the words that it was forming
And the sign said, “The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls”
And whispered in the sounds of silence

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you

Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And Im waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

My hands are tied
My body bruised, shes got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you
With or without you